It can be so hard to trust.
My head know that I can.
I can recite verses about it.
No good thing does He withold from those who love him.
Trust in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
But, in reality, it is difficult.
It is difficult being rejected after every offer you put in on a house. It is discouraging finding THE PERFECT house, but then being outbid. It is frustrating living in a town with a housing market that is off the charts expensive.
I am impatient about finding a family-friendly car. I am tired of working so hard every day. I am worried about what we will do with everything in our spare room in order to make space for baby.
I am not trusting. My head knows I should, but my heart is clinging to my wants.
I compare. Why do they have everything worked out? Why do they have a bigger home than us with a yard and they pay less? Why am I the only one of my friends working full-time?
Full-on pity party, eh? I mean, truly I am overly blessed. What do I have to complain about? Nothing.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight.
I need to believe that. I need to live it.