The days have been rolling by with a sort of rhythm lately. A good rhythm. One that leaves room for spontaneity and for rest and sometimes I still don’t get a shower in, but that is just fine.
Right now I’m sitting on my bed, snuggled under a fuzzy blanket, while hubby bathes the kiddos. Dinner is done and there a few dishes that still need washing and I should be putting away the clean laundry, but I’m giving myself a “mommy time out”.
I’ve been doing these “mommy time outs” here and there. When the whining and “mommy, mommy, mommy” and fighting start to overwhelm me or when I begin to feel annoyed with my toddlers for little things or when my back hurts and I am overly exhausted, I know it is time. Time for me to sneak away and ignore the shrieks and to just rest.
Sometimes it looks like folding laundry on my bed while listening to an encouraging podcast. Other times it is some alone time for Bible study. I have even read a chapter or two in a book just for fun. Yet other times I just do the dishes and clean the kitchen alone and with no interruptions while listening to worship music.
These time outs have been so refreshing for me and hubby is happy to take the reigns for 30 minutes or an hour or so when I tell him my soul needs it. It is so much better than struggling on and snapping at my kids or my husband as a result!
But, really, life has been very sweet lately. There have been some good shifts in my thinking, some good encouragement and resources building me up, some good old fashioned organizing and purging, some good (for being 30 weeks pregnant with wakeful toddlers) sleep. All of it has contributed to days that run more smoothly and to nights that are more relaxing.
I know that this life is not without sacrifice and not without suffering as we were reminded in our sermon this past Sunday, but there is still value in pursuing a life that is not complete and utter chaos. There were times I felt that way, that my life was chaos, and I hated it. So, these past few months have really been refreshing. Oh, there are still tantrums and spills and continual dishes and laundry. There are still financial stresses and projects and so. mnay. things. to. do. but it all just seems less stressful somehow and that, my friends, is the difference.
We rise with the kiddos a bit after 6am each day. We make our morning beverages and cook up some breakfast. We eat around the table and read the verse of the day from daddy’s app on his phone. We give hugs and kisses and send daddy off. We tidy up the kitchen and color and play. We go outside for hours on end and mommy sometimes sneaks in Bible study or grading while the kids dig in the dirt. We drink smoothies and eat snacks and the wee one naps. We read books and do “School” and mommy cleans up. There is tea time and Bible study after nap and maybe a walk or more time outside or an errand or lunch with daddy. Then, we clean up for daddy and play some more while mommy folds laundry or preps for dinner. Sometimes there is Curious George or the special treat of a movie. Then, daddy is home and dinner is served and we gather together. Play time follows and mama cleans up. Then, off to brush our teeth with daddy and get our jammies on. Some books on the couch, prayers in bed, plenty of blankets for the girls who now share the same twin bed. Mommy and Daddy sneak off to exercise, or grade papers or study the word, or veg wit some netflix while pounding down delicious ice cream. We check on our babes and head off to bed and someone may wake up in the night and then it begins again the next day.
And it is sweet.
These simple days. They may seem monotonous or arduous to some and I suppose it is a bit like that. But this rhythm is a good one and I am so thankful for it. Tomorrow could be helter skleter and I could wind up in tears at the end, but I know that is not going to be the pattern of our days. I’m feeling ready for our third little nugget to join this family. Ready to meet the challenge of three children under the age of four.
I may need to have more mommy time outs, but that is fine and good too. Those times will come and I will meet them head on and will meet with my Lord in them. He is the drummer creating the rhythm and it is all, after all, for Him.